7/13/00 4:57
PM (dream)
Seems like same city from previous
entry - almost a continuation/overlap. I am baby-sitting a kid who lives
in a house atop a steep grade, surrounded by trees and countryside. The
house is very modern in design but in tune with its natural surroundings.
The interior is complex -angular floors, strange slants that seem to
miraculously make sense, many unusual rooms and spaces. I have left the
kid for 15 minutes to go run some errand, and when I return the parents are
already home. Or they get home just after I get back. In either
case, I confess that I left the child alone for a few minutes, and this
displeases the mother. But it's no biggie. Outside the upstairs
window is a view of the adjacent house - its walls ornamented with bas reliefs
of the buddha and something i've forgotten, alternating criss cross
style. the roof is large in area, flat and oblong, covered with grass,
into which have been cut several oval forms, which the woman tells me symbolize
the completion of some ritual. the most recent cut is the largest and
offset distinctly from the others, which are very narrow and closely grouped
together.
The woman is some kind of proto-lover of mine. About ten years my senior (aren't they all?), a little shorter, very sexual. We get a little closer, not sure of the details here, but I discover in time that her skin is covered with spherical blisters (a skin disease I've seen before in real life, like little bubbles of flesh all over), some of which are intensely colored. They feel very hard and rough. I am slightly turned off by this. My imagination plays all sorts of tricks with this skin condition - for a moment i can imagine it's just so many incense globes, which slowly release their volatile oils and evaporate. We are kissing and petting outside in the moonlight (Earlier I was requested by The Others to get a digital photograph of the moon from a high open point in the house, in order to check that it was real and not a projection of the evil ghosts said to inhabit the house) and through the screened window above our heads I can see her husband watching us, undisturbed. She notices him, too, and asks him to come outside. There is no animosity between them; they are separated and still friends. He is not a rival. He is very handsome and clean looking. We become friends. Later the woman comes out of the shower and the skin bubbles are gone (we had previously had a long discussion about them. they were perhaps contagious. either she got them first then gave them to him or vice versa), and we search for a comfortable place to make love. inside her mouth i can see a row of blisters where her bottom teeth should be and am privately repelled as we kiss. then between her opened legs i can see a penis, smallish but definitely a penis, where her clitoris should be. i ask her if she is a man. she answers, "yes." i vaguely remember sucking him/her, but the dream becomes very hazy at this point...
Much later (?) i am sitting with two
elderly men (grandfathers of sorts, somehow family or close) on the rocks
facing a mutated version of the cove. i listen to the sounds the waves
make over the rocks near the shore, determining the underwater topology based
on the acoustics. i am explaining something to them. they seem
distant yet vaguely engaged.