9/16/00 3:13 pm, outside @ -----'s.
it is a Saturday. I am spending
the weekend here, as I usually do, but this weekend ----- is busy. I am
alone and, admittedly, somewhat lonely.
I am beginning to feel the impact of my decision to give up employment at the club in order to "study" full time. There are a great many voids to be filled. There is the sudden and oddly powerful realization that I now must take complete care of myself.
I shall exercise, daily.
I shall meditate, daily.
I shall spend a few moments each day in
spiritual studies.
I shall go for walks often.
I shall mind what I eat and
drink. Very little carbohydrates, very little alcohol, less caffeine.
I shall keep an exact record of all
expenditures and income.
I shall keep a daily journal of my
activities, thoughts, and feelings.
I shall reserve time for my beloved
-----, and support her as best I can.