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8/29/00 3:43 pm
now i  feel the words coming - Starbucks on B'way at 102(?) St. - used to live up here - shared the ----- couch with ----- for a few weeks in the early summer of '97 - she worked here, fucked guys who worked here, god knows how many others - Colombian - rich flavor - shake of chocolate, dash of cinnamon - B. Stroustrup, impenetrable high level slavery - a slab of pure slack cut out of the thin air - this afternoon, this hour anyway, is mine.

I had troubling dreams [cut to dream diary].

2nd cup of coffee.  Outside the sun has been obscured by clouds and a wind is whipping up.  The Buddhist statue that survived Hiroshima in nearby.  I was telling ----- about it the other day...  I imagine the club is fairly dead, but I could be wrong.  ----- is probably there today.  It's now 4:08.  My second attempt to get an HIV test at the Riverside Clinic failed today.  I just couldn't get myself up out of bed when the alarm sounded at 8am this morning.

Troublesome sleep, conflict resolution.  The all-nighter (Sun-Mon) has again ruined my sleep cycle.  I will have to have enough discipline to get up and go tomorrow early.  I think the friends bug has me  more upset than it should - why should my entire world come to a crashing, confused halt just because a computer program fails to behave the way i expect it to?

We form an interesting picture: myself and three other young men here in the lounge area of Starbucks.  To my immediate right, one is writing in a journal using a fountain pen and a book whose pages are unusually broad.  Two others are working on laptops.  I'm using the Palm IIIc with portable keyboard, feeling very James Bond and a little hipper than the others.