DREAM 8/6/00 9:37 pm
entering a large house with long,
narrow hallways and unnaturally high ceilings. The place is more brothel
than Studentenwohnheim but nonetheless a combination of both. We
enter a smoky (drugged incense) bedroom at the end of the hallway on the left,
whose threshold is about eight feet long and extremely narrow, finding bunk
beds and plenty of pillows. There are many voluptuous women there - one
takes my hand and leads me off into the woods. At a sufficient distance
from the big house we begin undressing, kissing, fondling. She is showing
me her nipples and genitalia; for some reason her name is Rosalyn. She
has brown eyes and brown curly hair and bears uncanny resemblance to -----,
whom I met later that afternoon. As we get ready to do the dirty deed, I
suddenly become aware that I don't want to cheat on -----, and feel I've
already gone too far. I dress myself and tell this woman, "I can't
do this..." and run back to the house in search of -----. I look
first in the room I left her in but she is gone - I feel abandoned, as if I'd
already lost her forever, then exiting the room I realize I'm on the wrong
floor. I rush down the endless flights of stairs and find the true room
I'm searching for, look in to see what I think is ----- sleeping soundly under
a duvet and, as I go toward her, I actually wake up beside her, facing her
back, gently holding her in the spoons position. I tell her about the
dream. I do not, however, tell her about how much ----- resembles the
lover in my dream.